Nov 16, 2009
Remember, remember, this is now, and now, and now. Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become acutely aware of all I’ve taken for granted
Posted at 12:00 pm by Xthenight
Nov 8, 2007
I believe that the very purpose of life is to be happy. From the very core of our being, we desire contentment. In my own limited experience I have found that the more we care for the happiness of others, the greater is our own sense of well-being. Cultivating a close, warmhearted feeling for others automatically puts the mind at ease. It helps remove whatever fears or insecurities we may have and gives us the strength to cope with any obstacles we encounter. It is the principal source of success in life. Since we are not solely material creatures, it is a mistake to place all our hopes for happiness on external development alone. The key is to develop inner peace. "
Posted at 10:37 am by Xthenight
Posted at 10:30 am by Xthenight
Jul 2, 2007
"nothing is easy" i thought.
"yes" she said aloud, "everything is possible!"
i looked at her. as deep into her big eyes as i could stand. it was such a
simple four word statement. yet, it sat inside me with the strength of
dynamite. little explosions started going off in my head that got bigger and
bigger and bigger. with my lips slightly moving to the beat of the moment, i
kept repeating her words over and over to myself...
"yes...everything is possible, yes...everything is possible,
yes...everything is possible."
she sat back on her elbows and stretched out in the sun.
"you know" she said. "the thing with you, is that you somehow managed to take
a tiny percent of yourself, the smallest fraction, and turn it into your only
equation. in this life, there are so many sides to everything. and that
includes you. you have so many things waiting to come out...and yet you insist
on building from only one part of yourself. you wouldn't point to your pinky
and say this is my entire body. just like you wouldn't look at one branch and
declare that this is a tree. but if you add all of the little puzzle pieces together, it makes up one entire picture. but right now, how you live,
and how you create, you are just a little torn corner of a photograph. and i
know deep inside you, even more so than me, you are dying to see what's in the
rest of the frame"
"a single hand can write several stories. you have made your point. You have
said everything you can about it. lay that old character aside for a minute
and allow yourself to make some new ones. put them in films, paintings, poems
or songs. give them different names if you like...they can be heroes or
villains, it doesn't matter. but what does matter is that all of them
together, standing side by side, will make up one thing as a whole...and that's
you. be brand new, let yourself have the innocence of a kid again. have it be
your call to arms...make a revival out of it."
- "A Single Hand" - xoxo, panda
Posted at 02:46 am by Xthenight
Jun 8, 2007
"if you're so prone to accidents and misunderstandings you may
accidently misinterpret honesty for selfishness. we're two human
beings. individually. with inherent interest in each other and how we
relate. if you're still prone to accidents and misunderstandings you
won't understand me or my motivation for being alone. we're just two
human beings. individually. with inherent interest in each other and
how we relate. considering everything, me leaving with regrets only
makes sense. i'll see you when we're both not so emotional."
-"I'll see you when we're both not so emotional" by American Football
Posted at 07:03 pm by Xthenight
Jun 5, 2007
"you're the leaky sink of sentiment
you're the failed attempts
i never could forget
you're the metaphors i can't create
to comprehend this curse that i call love"
- "Hold me Down" by Motion City Soundtrack
Posted at 07:29 pm by Xthenight
May 11, 2007
"I want to work on my character. I think it's in there, a good person. I don't believe in just doing good things, I want to feed my demon as well. One should learn to live both the demon and the angel, you know? But I have a way to go. People excite me, they turn me on. A new person can trigger things in you that you didn't even know you had. If it's musical that's even better. The unknown turns me on."
Posted at 12:34 pm by Xthenight
May 3, 2007
" I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true.
Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an
extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything
remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe
Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really
should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define
our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that
is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love
fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also
be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of
love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its
called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are
about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest
of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We
are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved
ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped
without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at
one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three
miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst
Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears
and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest
days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a
man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of
him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All
the usual symptoms. "
Posted at 10:10 am by Xthenight
Apr 27, 2007
"When I go to bed, I get hungry! When I sit down to eat, I get sexy! I
saw a man, lying in the middle of the road! And I said "can I help
you"? And he said "I just found a parking space, now I'm waiting for my
wife to go buy a car!"
"Life is beautiful. Really, it is. Without it you'd be dead."
"There once was a girl from Salt Lake City, with two cord legs and two
rubber titties. She loved electricity, but she burned off gas, with a
V8 pussy, and a Cadillac ass."
Posted at 06:35 pm by Xthenight
Apr 26, 2007
" Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a
fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc
players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low
cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage
repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose
leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire
purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who
the fuck you are on Sunday night. Choose sitting on that couch watching
mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food
into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your
last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the
selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your
future. Choose life. "
Posted at 11:34 pm by Xthenight